When we are operating out of the addictive process, we know little of serenity. The word serenity is something that we understand in abstract and often not in practice. As we begin to take care of ourselves and recover from our compulsive doing, we begin to experience moments of serenity.
The first time we experience serenity, it may zip through our consciousness like a meteor and scare us to death, because this feeling of serenity is so foreign to us.
After a while, we begin to recognize these moments of serenity as very special and we try to make them happen through rituals, practices, and techniques. We are now not focusing on controlling the world, we are trying to control our experience of serenity … back to the drawing board.