Every time I come across negative energy that disrupts my peace, every time I am not successful at reaching a goal, every time I feel like I fell short of being the ‘perfect’ person, it pisses me off!! Like for hours and sometimes days.
I had one of those days today: I tried something and I wasn’t good at it and it didn’t turn out the way I had hoped it would And I was annoyed with myself – truth be told if I had a few minutes alone I probably would have cried. On the trip home, I kept asking my inner self “What the hell is that all about?” Why can’t I just shake it off and continue with my day?
For me, I want to attain a level of humanity that is going to take some time and maybe isn’t achieve-able in this lifetime. Maybe I have a hard time looking at my ‘weaknesses’ and have programmed my mind to be the ‘counter of failures’. I do know that I have control over how long I will allow the negative, ego-centric thoughts to hold me captive.